Expect Miracles!
My God, my Lord, is so faithful. He is so so very good. I am finally entering in a place where my mind can catch up and get in a good place again. Struggles? You hear me talk a lot about struggles and overcoming them but I don't talk much about my actual struggles on here. That's due to me being a firm believer in not talking about my struggles until I have victory. I refused to be someone who sits and complains about their struggles and where they are- that does not and will not ever help anyone move forward. Focusing on the solution? Now that is the answer. I am so thankful to finally have something to get my mind back in a place of expecting miracles and expecting success and results.
I have struggled my whole life. I have always been heavy. I come from a family that has various people who struggle with their weight/health in some form or another. I am smaller now that I remember being in elementary school. My eighth grade dance dress falls right off me.I think towards the beginning of my journey, there was definitely a sense of urgency that was there. It kept me propelled and moving forward but once I hit this place where complacency set in the battle became more difficult and seeing myself losing weight and hitting my goals became harder and harder. If you cannot see it with your minds eye you cannot achieve. Believe and achieve. Christ tells me that I can accomplish anything with his strength. I truly believe it. When you set big goals or have huge dreams, people tell you to be realistic. What is realistic anyways? Is realistic to YOU being in an below or average dead end job doing the same hum-drum things every day? Is it eating whatever you want without a care in the world because you have given up on any ounce of strength or self-control in side of you? Is it giving up on things that are your passions? - Not for me. THANK GOD I have people in my life that have shown me that being realistic, expecially as a follower and believer in Christ, is to expect miracles. Miracles! ANYTHING I can desire or imagine. God loves me so fiercely and he gives me his love, his strength, his might, his power and he tells me that I can accomplish anything that I set my mind to through his strength. And the even more beautiful thing is that it doesn't have to be in my strength or be about me at all- it's all about Him and his glory!
I am at a new place. I have lost 130 pounds but I have tons of loose skin. I have spent many moments thinking about going under surgery to get my loose skin removed I don't have the money at the moment nor am I quite convinced that its the route that I want to do considering money, scarring and I feel it's an easy way out of something that may eventually fix itself... who knows. It's frustrating knowing that I would be probably two sizes smaller if I didn't have the looser skin keeping things hanging where they weren't supposed to be. I had started to give up on my skin tightening up and becoming the woman of strength physically that I desire to be. What the heck?! I might as well give up on God and tell him that he cannot do anything. I might as well slam the door in his face and doubt him in every area of my life if I doubt that. I refuse to sit on the fence anymore! My God is my father, my abba, my love, my best friend, my source, my provider, my redeemer, my healer. He can do ANYTHING he wants. I expect Him to because he loves me. BE REALISTIC of YOUR GOD. Be REALISTIC about what HIS word says! Be REALISTIC about how much he loves you! BE REALISTIC...
EXPECT MIRACLES!
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