September 2009.

September 2009 was when I started this journey. I cannot believe that it's almost been four years. Four years since I started my weight loss journey. It's funny how it can seem like just yesterday yet so long ago at the same time. I wish I had taken better notes or journals of the time that has passed each day. Notes of how I felt, what I thought, things that were hard, things that were easy. It's funny when people have success. We tend to compare our worst with there best. We tend to focus on what is going right for them and often we do not know the struggle or hard work that they put in during the back ground to get there. We don't know the daily moment by moment battles and hardships that they had to walk through to get where they are. We often have such a skewed perspective. And comparison. What a trap that Satan uses in our lives. When you compare, no one wins. Comparison is truly the robber of joy. When we look at what others have, what others do, what others receive and we look at it from our mentality of lack when in reality we all come from a place of gain and fortune.. but most people choose to look at the lack rather than fortune. It keeps residing in my spirit here lately in regards to weight loss, my business, my job, my life, my relationships... you have EVERY SINGLE THING that you need to do what you were called to do. You are equipped with everything inside of you to be who you are and walk out your purpose, your dreams and your calling now stop looking to the others in front, behind or to the side of you, rise above, dig deep, dig in (THE WORD) and look up and trust. Forward march to victory!

The last four years have been extremely interesting to say the least especially this last year. Year 3-4 was the biggest challenge. I finally had gotten to a place where I was smaller than I was when I was in elementary school (4/5th grade) and I was ok with where I was. It's funny how complacency can set in so quick. I began to be ok with where I was and was not pushing through to victory and my final goal. My goal is not finished. 150 pounds it was and I still desire that. My itch to tighten up is coming back and I am not a quitter. The thing is that too many people fall down in their journeys like these whether it be weight loss or whatever. They do well. They do well. They do well. They succeed. THEN BAM. Obstacle! Struggle! Road Block! Plateau! Backward Slide! and they stop fighting. They give up. They quit and then they go back exactly where they were before if not worse. I refuse. We ALL will fail at some point in our journeys but how long will you stay down? Will you quit? Will you forget your goals and your dreams? Will you forget why you started in the first place? Will you let circumstances take the victory that is rightfully yours? GET UP. Dust off! Move forward. Fall. Rise. Fall. Rise. Fail. Move Forward. Fail. Press Harder. It is part of life. Failing is how you succeed. You only lose if you quit.With that I end with a lyric of a Cher song from the great movie Burlesque  "This is far from over. You haven't seen the last of me."