Becoming Blair...

God is so good and faithful. I truly every single day am falling more and more in love with HIM and who He is. Truly. I find myself longing to be with Him, longing to read books about Him, longing for His comfort. What an incredible place that is. This has been quite an incredible journey that I have ventured on in the past 2.5 years. I have lost 107 pounds with 43 to go as far as my health/weight loss is concerned. I've gone from a size 26 to a 12 (and some 10's in dresses! eek!!). I used to take a mess of health medications as well as anti-depressants. I used to struggle with depression & thoughts that were un-godly and not of the Lord. I didn't want to live. I truly hated Blair Christie. I give Him 100% all of the Glory in my life and for the things that I have overcome. My determination, dedication, self-control, will to win... whatever you want to call it... it ALL came from Christ. He was my strength & I will praise Him for it ever more. Thanks for being my everything when I feel so empty & small. God really can do whatever He wants. He is so powerful & so good to us because He loves us. I went from pure hatred to actually loving me. I'm truly finding out who I want to be... more than that, who HE created me to be. His perfect plan for me. His perfect purpose for me and every detail that gets refined as I seek His face just blows me away. He really loves me and cares for me and I am perfectly created by Him. For most of my life I felt so unworthy of love. I felt like I was going to be this lonely, ugly, no good single woman who was never good enough for anything she strived for. Excuse my language but: What a LIE from the PIT OF HELL! Truly! It's my prayer that women, especially single ladies my age, will be released from the bondage of Satan and his lies and deceit. You are worthy. You are beautiful. You are loved. You have something to offer. Stop wallowing in your lack. Your lack of certain looks. Your lack of money for certain clothes. Your lack of a boyfriend, fiance or husband. Your lack of children. Your lack of personality traits. JUST STOP. STOP SCRUTINIZING WHERE YOU LACK! STOP STARING AT YOUR WEAKNESSES! STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE, OTHER WOMEN. STOP FOCUSING ON YOU! Truly it's not about US! [ps: the yelling/intensity is because I have been there and still am there most days. It is a daily struggle and battle to WIN MY MIND; to commit to the Lord.] I focus on ME, ME, ME and a little more of ME [and a side order of Me] and that is what binds us. It completely binds us up! We are so selfishly looking in at ourselves and what we lack and we aren't focusing on Christ. We are here for HIS Glory- not ours! He is made perfect in our weaknesses! Don't doubt you- He made you. Start becoming you. Don't become who your boyfriend wants you to be or the cute waiter from Mellow Mushroom. Don't become who your best friend is or the girls who are getting the attention. Don't even become the most admirable person you know or someone who mentors you and you're so thankful for. BECOME YOU. I'm becoming..BLAIR... and I kinda like it. :)