It has been a while. You would think of all times that I would've really taken time to post and reflect during summer while I had time off for school. God threw some really cool surprises in for me this summer. I wish I could wrap it all up into words but I really cannot. God is so good and gracious though in ALL His ways. I thank God that it has nothing to do with me and my power because I am so weak and imperfect. Praise God that His strength is made perfect in my weakness.
I know most of you reading this have followed this blog because of my weight loss so I do want to give you a quick update on that... I am still around 89 pounds. I am still shooting for 150 by september but lets be honest, that probably will not happen. My real goal is to have 100 pounds done by september which will be 100 in a year which is pretty darn impressive. I love it though because yes, I mistakes in my eating. Yes, there are days when I do not work out but I, unlike most people which is where they fail and lose their success, I have learned that it is a journey. Much like everything else in our lives. We cannot become results driven but rather instead we need to become process driven.
This summer the Lord has really been challenging me with people in my path who have told me that I should write a book. Not necessary, I think, do I want to write it about losing weight but rather on becoming who God created me to be and finding my identity in Christ. He is my beauty. This, too, is definitely a journey as I am learning and making process on how to love myself and find my identity in Him. Praise God for his grace and patience during this journey.
Most of you who are reading this, I believe, are good friends of mine and know me fairly well. If so, you are aware that I have worked at a Camp for Special Needs every summer for a very very long time. This summer, the Lord graciously gave me an opportunity to work at camp and be there when I had not expected to be. And all for a purpose! Man- PRAISE GOD! There were a lot of things here in Charleston that I needed to be focusing on but He is good and is the author and perfector of my life and it was all in His hands. I learned so much this year at camp joy and was blessed with such tremendous relationships. Every year that I work camp joy, I have gone for the campers praying that the Lord would use me to work in their lives. This year... my heart was a little different. Those campers know the Lord. They are sure in their faith and confident in their savior. This year, the Lord really placed the counselors on my heart. Little do I believe that I was some great example or made any difference in any of the lives of the counselors but I went in with such a heart for all the people. If I am honest, it has not been until recently that I have really started to develop a heart for people. People honestly annoyed me in the past. There was always something bad about them that I could find to harp on or they were some type of inconvience to me. PRAISE GOD for the work that He is doing inside my heart. God I just pray that you would continue to mold my heart and my spirit to be in line with you. Make my heart your heart. Make my eyes your eyes. Make my hands your hands. I am thankful that I am starting to really delight in people.
DUDE! (oh man. I really get excited when I talk about this!!) I mean THINK ABOUT IT. REALLY. Think about this... every single person was made in the image of God. EVERY PERSON. That flipping blows my mind. What a mighty God we serve and how humbling it is to think that me... little old me... little blair christie was made in HIS image and so was everyone reading this. And every annoying person that is slow in the asile at walmart. Or the person digging in their purse at a green light or doing whatever it is that urks you. I love God so why not love people. Thank you, Jesus for working in my heart.
Anyways- at camp joy, I really got to sit back and delight in young people. It was incredible. I kind of got to sit back and be more of an observer and it was such a blessing to my heart. I just love people so much and it is such a testimony to God and his mighty power and creation. I got to start new relationships and build so many relationships with such people of beauty-- people who God was so evident in their hearts. I am tremendously blessed. I got to build strong Christian relationships and share my heart and what God has been doing with incredible women such as Julianne Cruce, Olivia Belk, Elise Harbin... man I could go on forever. And I was so so so blessed to create a new deep relationship with amazing people like the Lasso family. Sarahbeth Lasso, I swear, is my long lost soul mate. What an incredible woman with such a big heart-- and her kids... oh, man. They just melt my heart away. I sit here and pine over when I'll get to be back with them. They just fill my heart with so much joy. That will be a post for tomorrow perhaps. Then I got to delight myself in the campers, of course which have always had such an incredible place in my heart. The picture up top is Katie Hill. She and I have been at camp joy together since I have worked and she is incredible. What a perfect example of Christ's beauty and grace. She is one of my best friends and speaks to my heart about Christ's love. I wish I could be around her more-- she melts my heart. LOVE HER!
Anyways-- like I said in previous posts...this is going to start being about me and how God is transforming my heart, mind, soul and body so its no longer exclusive to my weight loss though i will definitely give an update on it because I know you guys have been such faithful supporters! I really am going to try to be better about updating again! I appreciate you and love you more than you'll know. God is good and gracious!
I love you!
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